"We do not see ourselves as others see us"

Jag älskar att skriva. I slutet av nian fick vi i engelskan uppgift att skriva en uppsats utgående från ett ordspråk/citat (vi fick välja från en lista läraren gav oss). Jag valde "We do not see ourselves as others see us" eftersom det var ganska aktuellt i mitt liv just då. Nu tänker jag låta er läsa den. Ni får gärna hålla i minnet att det är över ett år sedan jag skrev den. Enjoy!

Sometimes I wish people knew who I really am. Maybe I'm the only one to blame, because I usually keep my feelings to myself. This means that almost no one knows how I really feel and who I am.
Some people claim they know me better than I do myself. I think that's because they think they know me, but it's not the real me, and I don't know the same me as they know. If you want to know who I really am, you have to ask me, because no one else would tell you the truth.
People who don't know me that well might think that I'm quiet and cautious, but I can tell you; I'm not! My friends can assure you of that. Actually I'm really crazy. I'm jumping and dancing all around, and if I'm happy I can start laughing for nothing. Especially people here in school se me as a perfect, smart and quiet student, but that's not true, sometimes I even hate being seen that way. I want them to know me! Well, I think most of the ninth-graders have got to know me a bit better this year, and that makes me happy.
My friends often tell me that I'm so unselfish, and nobody listens to me when I try to tell them they're wrong. Because I am selfish, but that's a thing I often keep inside of me. I'm not unselfish, I'm just good at faking it.
Speaking of faking it, most people think that I'm so optimistic and happy all the time. But there are days when I just want to lie in bed and cry because I'm so lonely and hae my life. Most of these days it isn't possible for me to do that, so then I fake a smile now and then and say that I'm tired... I have no problem understanding that "everybody" thinks I have such a good life, because most of the time I actually am happy and optimistic. Then it is important that the people around me aren't very moody, because then I have to feel very great to be able to keep my spirits up.
Something I absolutely hope that others see is that I am myself and I don't care what others think of me. If they think I'm ugly or childish or whatever, that's their problem! I'm happy for who I am and that is how it is going to stay.
I think everyone agrees that I'm stubborn. That's a thing I like about my personality. It's good to be stubborn, you shouldn't give up that easily. Sometimes people get annoyed at my stubbornness, but I just find it funny. Nevertheless, I respect limits.
There are quite many different persons who have the same name, look and day of birth as I, but I'll do my best to as soon as possible have all these persons gathered as one. Hopefully that one of those persons will be the person I already know.

Haha, jag måste säga att allting har förbättrats sedan jag skrev det där; min engelska, mitt skrivsätt, mitt liv och hela jag!